That which cannot change

Tumult and smoke clouding vision and viewpoints.
A stranger lives inside of me kicking my demons cage.
Peace is a myth in my world of war and hate.

Release?
I’m about to kill.
Vendetta?
They never die!
Death?
Am I alive?

Fiction you preach and atheists you seek.
The numbing sensation of nothing, your luck is about to change.
Your future is bleak, mine beginning the love the rage the death of the weak.

I watched you die..
I’m about to explode.
And you’re going to fade.
I’m going to fly.
And you’re going to cascade.
All over your broken dreams.

Release?
I’m about to kill.
Vendetta?
They never die!
Death?
Am I alive?

Your soul is rotten and your heart split.
Through memories and shadows you drift.
The core is the truth and the truth is..

You’re just another hit for the Jesus Christ JUNKIE!

Release?
I’m about to feel.
Vendetta?
I fuck for more than the thrill.
Death?
A sweet embrace that is only a beginning.

How about you?
O pessimist?
How about you?
O Nihilist?
How about you?
Jesus Christ Junkie?
How are the prices?
Of souls these days...

Because mine’s not for sell,
for none of the above.
I don’t give it away I would only out of love.
And it’s here now so make an offer even greater.
But in truth..
There is none.
But I like hearing you waste your time.
Trying to sway,
what cannot be swayed that which cannot be changed.

Dig and Swim

Dogma fury, face the realism.

Perception beyond the realm of your ravages,
on Holy ground totally savage.

These people that stand before you stand in the way.
Simple and brainwashed to decay.
Reach deep inside and pull forth potential, do not piss it away.

You dare come to me on my ground,
my house where I bed my wife ?
You face me and fuck with me where I refuse to die?
Let the woods bare witness to your demise.
I am not some mere fool standing ready to take flight.
I am a man from genetic genocide I survived out of billions of possibilities,
and I didn’t struggle this far into existence to allow someone to disrespect,
my capabilities!

You’re spitting in the face of God’s child,
you stand before me in peril,
you goddamn maggot so vile.
You wish my death?
I wish your eradication.
I am not going to stop at mere brutality,
I will carry savagery unto your soul through out eternity.
Attrition, rage cannot describe, words cannot describe.
Only your utter annihilation will suffice
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Sealed away in a world far from comfort or restraint.
Inside an hourglass with blood instead of sand,
a skeletons offers his hand.
(Take the bait)

Fragments of darkness revolve around the dim moon lighting your horror.
The diminished ability to do anything less than cower.
A mutilated heart and devastated mind left to wander.

Crippled, yeah, the thing that haunts you most.
Alive and well, and you’re just a ghost.

Figments of monsters behind your eyes.
Darkness drowns out the only light.
Your enveloped in decay.
The real world gone away.
Where was the strength when you stabbed through yourself,
what was it that made you proclaim theft?
Where is the mirror?
Did you do anything besides scream in terror?

Crippled, yeah the thing that haunts you most.
Alive and well, and you’re just another ghost.

That damned stone, that damned house.
All of it left you alone left you cold left you beaten and bound.
The memories the tangle the bullshit you suffered through.
Everything you want to hide and burn is everything that made you.
But in the end, you’re a catatonic specter.
Left to bleed and suffer.

Crippled, yeah the thing that haunts you most,
Alive and well! And you’re just another fucking ghost.
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Distance bricks call upon me,
distance skies roar aloud,
as I watch the passing clouds,
Reflecting upon my journey to and from the depths of Hell,
in my created cell.



Tear and shred through the walls leaving only debris
into the next room attempt the escape.
Find it after all the brutality, tearing away at me that it was in your face.

A shimmer in your eyes full of passing days,
the oasis collecting the little bits of desert rain.
In a void of hope and neglect rolled into a cluster fuck.
I see the door, the way, the very thing you abhor.
What must be done will be done,
what was has come and passed.
All that had stripped you of pride is dead at last.

Graves filled with tears float the dead on tragic memories.
All that was is now drifting through the breeze.
The spirits of our loved ones and the fallen are as we hope, at ease.
In their place of rest and give us their energy their strength.
I’ve left this part blank to be reflected upon in meditation,
I will fill it with mirrors in hope you finally see yourself in contemplation.
To look beyond the written and fall into the chiseled truth that is our sought

redemption.
To dig and swim until you reach salvation.

I Bang Hard ;)

Come to me my slave, let me show you what sadistic sensuallity is. Wrist roped to the wall, feet apart, legs open abroad, glad I used the metal bar, to spread, its beautiful. Your pink snatch, as you cry and whine with the blind fold on, I'll stand calmly and watch, allowing the intesnity to build along with my urge to feel. feel your juices flowing over my hand, as I penetrate you like a brutal God, to have you scream love is a fraud, and pain is pleasure will be the goal as I pound harder into your tightly clenched hole, to have the blood flow over me, onto the floor, leaving you bruised, battered, and sore. But for this violence I am a whore, and shall you be my whore, I will teach you scream and yell for more. Lips stappled shut by my teeth, as my tongue comes free to taste the trickle of your wounds. Keep cumming, and take this hell, because if I get enough out of it, you might live to have a story to tell.
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Layers and layers upon the wall, the dried fluid lines the hall. Demons begging for some one to take their shame, cover it with a finger pointing blame. Beaten to a pulp, and bound to the floor. Torn open, folded, fisted, fucked, defeated. A used and broken toy lays in bondage unspoken. Slut of sorts, prostitution of scape-goats. The lies never end. Painted face, stare blankly, tremble in fear, as you flee quickly. Shaking the doors knob, finding yourself imprisoned within the horror instilling hall. No way out, you scream, your mind told you to shout. A blade suddenly buries into your leg, removing it from body, a beast with a mask has taken killing as a chosen task. You disfigured face, and mutilated torso will be on display, for the next victim to see.
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I'm fully aware of how much you love to point that finger.. Its time to go. Tommorow we'll all know. Nobody really wants to stop and think about the whore, the entire issue is moot, thus it is out the door. Just like you...So like you, the time gos right out of the window.. And you, We all know your alone out there, isolated, evaporateing like rain in the desert. The question now is, will you ever remember, that, its stupidty that brought you here. Just because you found christ! and leapt into the pool just to have your head dunked doesn't mean your a born again virgin! it doesn't mean you are cleansed of all sin! You are still the same fucking person, just now with an excuse to start all over! Yeah you, you keep getting closer, to the edge you go, talking about events and places, when you were never even there. You missed the message, you couldn't cover the traces, so you are just left with those secrets out, double faces revealed.

""Wish I could hold you up, in my arms.
Keep you safe and sound from any harm.
I can't seem to function, from this far away.
And every little moment looks so dull,
without your color in my day.

Oh it feels so good to hear you speak.""-tsc

Water rising..
Head beneath the waves.
Thunder above my clouded mind..
Rain pouring down..
Slowly I’m starting to drown..
Faceless reflection.
Timeless expression.
Hopeless objective.
Seems so easy,
to erase the memories.
Yet when I try,
it all seems to kick into overdrive..
All of the shame,
the blame,
pointing fingers at my name..
Hey, is all I can say..
As I extend an appendage..

Obsessive diluted voices.
Know it alls trying to force me onto a different course.
This is not my life you want to push me into..
This is not my dream you want to force me into..
You’re just pointing out my grave..
I refuse to be another slave...
I’ll die free,
I’ll die satisfied instead of becoming what you want me to be.

I came face to face with my demon,
alone I did this..
While all you could produce was acts of treason.
I sought redemption in the wilderness,
I carried my own broken soul out of darkness..
I fought hard to become someone else..
I did my best, now here I am..
A changed man..

Where did you happen to be?
when the world came crashing down around me..
As I recall you were out of your senses..
Falling apart at the seams..
While I continued to dream..
And by God as my witness, I did succeed.
I hold pride in all of that which I believe..
Never again shall I be deceived..
Never again shall I be so kind..
Keep that in mind..
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Once again,
you’ve crossed my mind..
I advise you just don’t cross my path..
I can promise along with this hatred comes a great wrath..
The rage continues to resinate.
Thinking you know me..
You don’t even know half of the story.
Your nose in the air,
pointing your finger..
No respect, you don’t seem to care.
You couldn’t even comprehend what I’ve done,
or where I am..
What I come from..
Yet I can clearly see you attempt to drag me down..
Just remember, what goes around comes around.
I can envision it now,
you sitting there in your dismal castle polishing your crown,
knowing it all..
Yet the enemies you’ve made keep pouring through the wall.
I can even hear them call..
“Lynch the bitch.”
Their coming straight for you..
Better run..
There’s no escape though cunt..
You’ve held your head up high,
that heart has become a target..
Fair game for a good beating, one you won’t soon forget.
Strutting with your diluted mind on a pedestal.
Running around laying claim to everything droll.
Deep within your incoherent idiocy I hear that inner child,
she’s beginning to bawl.
Yet that head is still high,
You’re fucking blind..
Being rushed by another mob.
Using anyone near for a crutch..
Willing to hold anyone back,
if it keeps you standing..
This is why the Lynching is coming..
Can you hear them yet?
“Lynch the bitch.”
Assumptions lead you into dismay.
This time you won’t get away..
“Lynch the bitch.”
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Misty night,
feel the wind blowing,
God gives a pleasant sigh.
Fill my soul.
Regain my control.
Slowly suffocate this anxious feeling.
It can be so, overwhelming.

Red, black, blue, black,
head to toe,
I’m coming back.
Right on track.

Smoking marlboro mediums,
swaying with the rhythm,
tinker with an old acoustic guitar,
got that feeling, like I’m under the stars.
Dabble with some magical riffs,
take in the flow of this mystical skill.
Fill my rift,
take in what is real.

Fed, racked, taken my life back.

Relive memories of old no more.
Tonight it’s time to drop the extra weight to the floor.
Vent some of this pressure,
open another chest filled with hidden treasure.
Seek what I must,
find shelter in the castle of the just.
Return all that I’ve been given,
retribution in laughter,
the secret medication for those who find wisdom..

Doing what I can with what I’ve got,
seems to be a rather peaceful, restful plot.
Give what I can when I have to,
do the right thing when there is no need to.
Karma is just around the corner.
Something to never forget, it maintains balance,
keeps the world together.
For some they hold love,
for others they become cold,
while we are given a smile from above.
Choices are choices,
use the free will wisely,
take this as a lesson in reason.
Pay attention to the soft inner voice.
Though it may be harsh,
keep in your heart,
it is always for the better.
Even when the honey is bitter,
and the milk seems sour.

Come on. Accept it. I'm your equal, your my sequal. Seductive, productive, this situation has become construction. Build the walls around your soul. Try to keep me out. Go ahead, cry, bleed, scream fucking Shout. My Soul is stained, my Hate was Blamed, you can't let anyone get in. I can't let anyone get out. I'll stay here all fucking Night. Keeping watch. Keeping track. Waiting for you to slack off your guard, I have paitence for your demise, you have heavy lidded eyes. I'll get you soon enough. I'll easily call your bluff. Shhh, don't cause a Fuss. We all know. Its black, white inside and out. Out here, this Monster starts to scale the wall. Out here this Creature watches you crawl. Out here. This Beast waits for its daily soul feast. Shh. Soon, your bones will be buried in bloody dirt. My fangs will be driping with sin... Yes, I can taste blood and cum. I'm so Sickening I can't hold back anymore.. I need to find your second half. and Rip her in two, then maybe I'll have enough for you too. As you blink and slip into Death, I'll wink and kiss your breast. Flesh, A warm wet mesh. My nature is simple.. I need to Breed, kill, feed, and make you bleed.. I have to violate every oriface. Fuck, I can't take this much more, My hunger grows forever more.. I am The Demon within. Always watching you with a wicked Grin. I love to see you, Sin.. Over powered by Lust, and Hunger. Cost. what cost is there? I'm destined for Hell...Inside of this Fucking body and life is Hell.. Welcome to me. Welcome to my Darkside...Sweetness.. Bleed with this.. Insert myself everywhere in you.. Your not just an Object, for me to Inject. I want to extract your life, your blood, your love, your cum, your Soul. My sick smile. My wicked Desire. Oh God.. Make her Bleed for me. I need to see tears.. I need to hear cries.. Because My Sweet princess of Light.. Its time to Die now.. Shh. Don't worry... I love to Inflict a Dark love upon your being. Remember I'm always seething. Oh God... Its time to release

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The lust is fed, my trust is dead, and your nothing but a bad memory. Its about time for something new to rise. This is a psychotic compromise. HEAR ME! Greed is no more than an evil need, better be ready to bleed when it comes time for me to feed. I'v done the wicked deed! I'v fed the wicked need! I'm falling out of love, and into the black spiral, time is in my hand, I'm watching the bitter end dive into the pits of hell. I saw the broken leash around her neck. Times still in my hand, better be ready for me to sin! send this blister, this reminder, this eye blinder, blood finder...STRAIGHT TO HELL!...HEAR ME! Have I got your attention> Have I found what binds you> Do you see what I need> Can you, read between the lines> of time> (the lust is fed) Trying me, tempting me, testing me, infecting me. (my trust is dead.) Cold, lifeless, sinful, helpless, restless, purely, simply holy. (your just a bad memory.) Stuck in my head, refuseing to stay dead. (I'm falling apart.) Waiting for a new start. The psychotic compromise..Trust me, I'll just bleed me. Trust me, I'v got more lust here....Trust whore.. Lust more...trust, whore. Lust more.. Trust whore.Times still in my hand, better be ready for me to sin! send this blister, this reminder, this eye blinder, blood finder...STRAIGHT TO HELL!...HEAR ME!....

I don't impress myself, willing to compress my state, drain the moment, bleed the vein of Poetic justice. Brooding over this seldom compelling story, my lifes work, should have no worry of becoming yesterday's worst. I don't think I'm the best, I'll let you put me through any test, as long as I can say. I told you so when the end shows, I'm on top. I'll never stop, I'm not a tamed beast, I won't join the theives feast, you steal the fame you have. I earn the very thing that some times can burn my hand, as I make the final stand. I don't say I'm the best, I'll let you give me any test, my heart beats, my eyes blank I'll see through your pretense, since after all in the test, I'm the intense guest.(...) Go on, get away from me, go on get away from. Me. You say I'm blind, truth hurts you can't see, I know, that today and every other, I'll be ready to take a test, if you want to give me another. test your guest, I'll place the hace onto your intelligence race, brilliance just around the corner, a beating heart, of the former champion in my hand. As I make my Final stand.
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Feed off of instinct or sit back and retreat into what might be real. Feel the sting or roll with the pain. Kill the thrill, and watch me fade. I. Never knew the answers. I. always wanted to tell you. I. Didn't have the nerve to spin around and turn the truth around. I, Just let my life slip away and fall into decay. I. Guess I should have crawled onto the shore. I. Covered in blood, lost in love, watching romance die with reason to live. I fell back into my shell. I. Even with this constant ache found that love has been driven over by a tank of tainted traits.. Erelevent violations kept written inside of a book that shades the fire burning in the day. Read through the book, or sit back and deceive myself with a lack of self respect. Feel the ring inside of my head, as I fold with the stain of my life on this earth. Steal the Hate from another to inflict it on the other. I. Conclude I never asked the right questions. I. Refuse to be the one to rescue the chosen fallen. I. Have run out of clues to find the truth. I. Share the shame of spilling my life onto Deaths table. I. Know my hope was drained with the paranoid thoughts that had drown me everyday. I. Saw that it was too late, for me to save my mind from the resting shade, before I just slip and fade....Turn around and face what you want to be, Turn about and taste what you can see. Fuck around and waste the time you have. Fuck up and kill yourself after you've talked your way through life. Nothing, No more, No one, Will except you again. Without.. Without. (Me) I carried you through the pits of hell, strapped a sword to my stolen soul and prepared for my darkside to rip out. Lashout, and knock you out. Begin with one thing my revenge!>>(....) Compare yourself to those you've betrayed, exalt the slaves you've slayed. Test your compassion. The one feeling you lack, the one instant when your life gos black.. BLAME ME! Nothing, No more, No one will help you again. They know about your putrid sin...And God damnit Motherfucker, I'm not your FRIEND

Who am I to say that I'm right and you’re wrong? who are you to say I'm weak and you’re strong?.. Never do these things and you'll live without me giving you hell. Why should I take an order in exchange for wet flesh? Why should you be content to try and make me do this? I don't think it makes sense, I believe you've gone off on a permanent power trip, time to come back to reality, live through gravity, find out that your standing on the same dirt as me, and not on a floor of gold. This is where the silence comes in, to make you wish that one of us will eventually attempt amends. Evidently you don't see the real me, search for the key, break the three faces on the wall, ones eyes moving, you’re in need to take the sight from your flesh, one way to give in is to give up, all the time you left was time for me to reflect. The damage has been shown, all the time my love was gone, you never mentioned how distant I was, you only thought there was control in your world, you thought wrong, I thought strong, I proved myself right you lost sight, the light of reality is just behind you, turn around and feel the burn. Who are you to look away when I try to say just how much I've changed? who am I to exchange respect for a derelict? Who would I be to lie? Who are you to hide those feelings inside? Why should I save the slave? Why should you stutter after you realize my soul doesn't flutter? Are you afraid? Do you feel that some one will. Finally steal your heart? Maybe from the start I saw through your deepening stare, I noticed you didn't seem to care, I didn't seem to want anything to do with you, now I know, without you I'll easily pull through. You’re gone, I'm done with telling you off, you’re all about decent, I'm out, and you can't seem to bring me back in. The thing you want. You can't have. I have stated this before, you can't dig my Grave, I wont have a slave that isn't worth the price to pay for owning one, I wont give in to a bitch that treats me like a stitch. I can't seem to feel your face, and I know why. Its because you lie, that’s not your only one, inside that place you hide is the second. My twin shadows over compensate for your two faced lies, I have two souls, one thinking, the other hunting. Hunting yours. Who are you to look back and say that I'm the one off track? who am I to look around and say I lost my ground? It doesn't seem possible you say. I say follow me this way be free this day. Come on, now go away, you've seen freedom, what? that’s it. Go away. Be free. Go away, I don't want to see your face today, not in this place or any other, no not even another. Don't bother, for if you do I'll be forced to smother. Every hope you had, and love you were glad to keep. I told you leave or I'll seep, into your sleep and turn your soothing dreams into nightmares, I don't have any cares, I won't be the one to have many loves, but I'll be the one to constantly shove the shit from my eyes. Your lies, my whys. The reason for you to cry...

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This place takes away my only way to get inside My own God....Your just jealious of the Selfish you can't stay away..keep me inside yourself...And I...Love the way. You bleed for me..inside and out...Inside and Out...Can't explain the way I gotta reastrain better than me Gotta find another way to be another way to bleed just lead me to the life of the Need...and I...Can;t seem to shake, the rakeing of my life, rake me Inside...(.,..,.) You know I can't restrain the blatant way each day. I.. Come close. and Fill the noose with a neck, just to Check the way too Fuck your own life, your pussies sweet but your lifes bleak and I need more than this..Too push on..With my sickness. pretend you're just another ease an ease of shame another way too Become what I want... you your my way my way too salvation my new revelation pushing myself away from time a good day a fleeing shame a breaking ray of light.....Come closer, feel like a loser...You...Just need a way...too face everyday without disdain come..My way..I...will show you..a path..of Pain. Come too me..Come too me...Come too me. Inside.. You'll see theres nothing left too hide somthing's gone nothing left too Hide inside you need another way too bleed through the day I can't find my way..Out of this broken glass shattered dream room of Decay

FUCK YOUR DREAM! Reap those feinding blaspheming whores that keep knocking on deaths door, I see the paper soaked in mud, lying on the ground, falling into the drain. Wheels of a broken name seeping into the Rain. Number my name, and I'll creep into your mind with past shame.. Label the Number inside of my Name and I'll reap your soul with a craving of Pain. Leak my life, then number none of my name, I'll be there waiting... Break through the wall that's covered in damage going on a mental rampage feeding the demon inside to hurt myself, place no blame on you just me and everything inside of me as I see what you do! I hate myself for knowing...For knowing. Your fucking sins, break off that seed within, it'll sprout with evil, and shed the skins of demons within! I might be right, but I could never tell with such a shell of my memory failing on me, fading away with the day light! Real, the blaspheming feinders to get inside of my business, to creep inside my life.. Number my name, and I'll creep into your mind with past shame.. Number the label you made, and I'll recover the strain with a page written by a ghost of disdain. 3 I'm a mathematical equation calling out for appraising. Give me a price, what am I worth? what do you want to offer to abuse me? to fuck me? to rape me? to shape me? to trap me? to Tear me apart and separate the pieces? 2! I'm a divided equation what do you need to come out with an equal of me? Do you want to cut my losses and slice my face? Do you want to peel my face off place it on a mantel and pray for me to cancel? This section is closed.1! I'm a philosophical question Is it you want to see me bleed die or dry up and become dust, so I can be buried and forgotten, but the error is, you can't forget the flexible, you can't return the hexible, you can't retract a statement made to your Gods face when you MEANT IT!
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I can hear you breathe, I can see you sleep. I'm in your life, much to close, to be put out. Your not that precious, just another debt, your not my pet, your not my toy, your not my love, your my prey. I hope some one will pray for you. The silence of the pshycho presses forward onto you. I can touch your face, you wouldn't even wake, I could kiss your lips, you wouldn't make a twitch, I should tear your heart out. But then I wouldn't have time to get out. You have no luck, its too late, Iv already snuck inside. Your not my Love, your Not my pleasure, your not my life, your just my Prey. I think I'll pray for you. I think I'll play with you.(Toy) Please me. (Satisfy my urge.) Give in to what you deserve. (Agony) Murder at Midnight. (Soon you'll never see) Bleeding on me. (You'll know everything Iv said was right.) I can feel your neck, and taste your breath. I can hold on tight, help to tremble the night. I have my hands on you. I won't let go. Its to know. Your Not my Life, your not my problem, your not a waste. your my love, my toy, my prey. My Pretty Prey. My Delicious victim. A lost Letter doused in blood.

The vicious cycle tearing you apart,You’ve lost it all, you blame the broken heart,All alone at last you don’t know where to start.One step away from your demise.Go right ahead, tell us some more lies.The band is getting bigger,And the favors are getting harder.You can’t stand the reflection,You’re staring at the demon…When the lids peel themselves open the light burns,Inside your simple little world you hurt..All that was so clear now blurred,One mind that was made, many mistakes repaid.Your life is slipping from your grasp right into the gutter.The band is getting bigger,And the favors are getting harder.You can’t stand the reflection,You’re staring at the demon..The spiral is getting wider,Time is getting shorter,Your life is strung out on a rope,At the end your life dangling for all to see,For all to read, all to glare gawk and steal.In an instance you’d trade it all in,Another lie slips, another fucking truth bent.

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Crippled freaks in the streets.Crush the means swallow the seams.Hidden behind the messages painted on the mirrors.Lipstick blood stained fucked upside down lifes little horrors.A new meaning is found.Yeah, when you control the sluts in the square.Its a frothing monster that smells blood in the air.Carnivorous beasts line the streets.Carefully select the meats.One two three its time to eat.Feast on the populace.When it boils down to insanity.Its all about adults, its about adult lively hood.Its all fucking psychotic, sex addicts.Fuck fuck fuck until you cant fucking see straight.Makes you wonder in a world of perverse behavior where children come in to play.In a land where madness reigns.There is no morality.Only darkness is maintained.And the money for the fame is the only thing that stays the same.The change lies within the souls of those that we watch decay.In a world of confusion with a populace drowning in indulgence.